I have decided to reduce my negativity and become positive.
What a funny little place it is.
I have a small analogy for this island.
It's like a video game.
Not a violent war type one... but one more like Spyro of Crash Bandicoot.
Where the trees are adundant and luscious but are sometimes difficult to see or appreciate.
The characters here are odd and funny but you can't help but love them and just take them for what and who they are.
And there is an aim for the game... there is always a level you are constantly trying to complete... but when you do complete it... there is a kind of disatisfaction, almost as if you aren't really sure of what you were trying to complete and the reason why you thought you should.
I had a conversation with someone yesterday about it and I may have come across quite arrogant in my opinions about living here and how, in my mind, there is no reason why anyone could want to stay here forever and feel satisfied with it's security.
Maybe that's what it is.... the massive security that Jersey provides... where is the challenge? where are the set backs that motivate you to have to fight and push harder for the things you want.
But I know my opinions are mine and there are plenty of people who love the prospect of having security like this, but I can't for the life of me, imagine me ever being settled with life here, not for a good 20 years at least.
This is not an ungrateful view. I appreciate the beauty and splendor of this place and my upbringing here has been one of a kind... the people I've met are completely unique and I will never meet anyone like them again in my life.
Without being able to just go for a drive down to the beach and just sit and look out for a while I would probably have gone mad a million times by now.
But, with the reality of university so real now, I can't help but wonder whether this has been a hinderance to me or not... has Jersey made me lazy?
I bloody hope not.
And all in all... I can't wait to get out the concrete routine I have been in for 18 years and 9 months.
Watch this space... when i'm living in a big city I might act like a little kid in a sweet shop and get awfully excited with all the new things I can do, see and have.